Ramallah between 60years of palestinian desaster and cuktural life

to life in Ramallah can be easy. I don´t feel everyday that I am in one of the places in the world where most horrible things are happening since 60 years. I can spend a whole day without passing a checkpoint, without seeing the wall. But if I want to go to East-Jerusalem ( arabic: Al-Quds) I have to pass the wall, the checkpoint. I have times where I cannot stand passing the checkpoint, so for weeks I try not to leave Ramallah to avoid to witness again this injustice, to avoid being helpless again, to avoid being ashamed again that the whole world is watching the palestinian Nakba ( catastrophy) since 60 years.
In the evening I can go to one of the cultural events that are everyday happening in Ramallah like the international contemporary dance festival, concerts, movie screening, art exibitions. Later I can go in one of the few bars and get drunken with some internationals and Palestinians. I can do this because here is not Gaza- because we have food here, we have constant electricity here.
I have time where I check the news twice a day-the headlines from today:
Mandela Institute Lawyer visits several detainees in Ayalon Israeli prison
Sderot resident killed by a homemade shell
Protestors in Bethlehem affirm the right of return
The Israeli army attacks the weekly Bil'in protest, dozens treated for tear gas inhalation
PCHR Weekly Report: 9 Palestinians killed, 35 wounded in Israeli attacks
Her blood remains to tell a story of another Israeli military crime
A wounded detainee remains in a bad condition
Gaza Power Company to stop due to lack of fuel
Four people wounded in fresh Israeli air strikes on northern Gaza
so sometimes i dot check the news anymore, because it is too painful.
Sometimes I think it is time to go back to Germany, but the thought hurts me, makes me feel desperate-
But i shouldn´t be desperate- I have the best example of the most patient people that I know just in front of me- where I in my thoughts might become a fighter and imagine to knock out the soldiers that bring this pain to the people they have patience.
Yesterday a big wish of me became true, i went to a concert of Reem Banna, a Palestinian singer that means a lot for me-Reem- you are the voice of Palestine´s soul